Delay...delay...it seems my blogs are under a delay

So, while I get on this website almost daily to check other blogs, I have not updated mine for a while. Sad.

My goals this year have not been quite as written down as I would like for them to be. In addition, there is a part of me that feels like I am in a purgatory of sorts. I know I should be walking every day. I know that the cold outside is a pathetic excuse when I have more walking videos than I care to name (or number). I know that my knee and hip bugging me isn't because I hurt them -- they are just tired of the weight fluctuating and inactivity. Yet, I still do nothing.

There is so much going on in our lives right now that it's almost as if I'm overwhelmed. Maybe it isn't almost as if, maybe I am. Maybe I, somewhere deep inside, know that my boundaries need to be set somewhere and between the constant running to pick up /drop off / do something with the kids (nearly 5 days a week or more), plus planning the farmhouse, plus daily living, trying to get to church (and failing at that right now as well), now teaching a child to drive, count calories, and all the other stuff that goes on, I'm just pooped....I know deep down that walking would help me deal with the stress but yet, I can't seem to get up and do it. I'm not quitting....just need to really get some things together and get it all planned out....the type A in me really needs to just make lists and stick to them.

What I really long for though is simplicity. I really really would like less running around, more quiet time with the family, more dinners with friends, less outside scheduling, less chaos in the house...more organization....ugh. I, in some fashion, have put a lot of stock into this farmhouse. There are a lot of "when we get to the new house" kind of comments that I think and say about a lot of these things that I want. I know for the rest of this school year I will be leaving the house at least once a day - Monday - Friday to play taxi to the boys (Dave & Ian). Dave will be driving next year and I hope that will help with the driving portion of the schedule -- at least his schedule. In my head, I have all ready placed a spot for things that are here in this house disorganized. Hopefully, those spots will come to be as Kyle gets the cabinets in and rooms set up. I also have in my head the neighborhood across the street from the farmhouse as my walking spot. It's perfect -- I will actually be able to walk out my front door, down the drive, across the street and loop 1 -3 or more miles in that little part of civilization --- especially considering the fact that the nearest house on our side of the street is 1/4 - 1/2 mile away.

So, as my purgatory sits...my life feels put on hold...it's only temporary....I know that...and I can almost see the end of the road....It's Jan 22 -- by Mar 22 we should be in the house putting our things in those places I can only right now picture in my head, walking in the neighborhood across the street, working in my yard/garden, cooking healthy foods (I do now too for the most part) in my new kitchen, having friends over for dinner and enjoying the quiet of 2 acres in the middle of Madison County.